Pulling me down...

I mean... a few days ago, the only thing that fucked me was the stupid prom.
Now... when I see all this drama in one tree hill is like I realize the whole thing around me... this will sound a little bit childly but... I LOVE MY MOMMY!!! and it's coming the day when I will get appart from her! AND I DON'T WANT TO!!! like, when u know u gotta do something, but ur mind just can't allow it!
my future, my future, my future, MY FREAKING FUTURE!!! I would like to live day by day, but I just CAN'T! and it's not any easy for me! the whole thing around me, that, maybe, after college i won't live with my mom again, or that, i'm leaving in six months and i don't know what i'm doing to hold me here or to hold everything here out of me! or this cristian thing... IS CRISTIAN NEVER GOING TO GET AWAY OF ME?!?!!?!?!!?!?!!? when i though i liked sandy, there comes cristian to FUCK ME UP again. And, after seeing him today, i'm not sure if I like sandy because he is sandy or if i like him for the faces of cristian that he shows!!!
FREAKING PROM GRADE!!
FREAKING BVETMED!!!
FREAKING RVC!!!
FREAKING ANDERSON!!
FREAKING RUCCA!!!
FREAKING SANDY!!!
FREAKING CRISTIAN!!!!!
FREAKING DOMINICAN REPUBLIC!!!
FREAKING FUCKED FUTURE!!!!
the worst thing is that i love all this things/persons so much that i can't tear them away from me.
*^@#~€4··"2!!!!!!!!!!!!!