24-04-08 Who should I shut first?

I was watching a serie today, it was about a guy who carried a gun to the school and tried to stop the pain people around was making him just by ignore him, and i'm asking my self
in wich point we have stopped being tenagers to become killers?
today's generation is so weak! all the teenager all over the eras have had the same problems we had, in wich point ours are bigger than theirs? why is this darkess all around us? could I have been this guy, could I been carryng a gun with me to the school everyday? everytime I kill 'em with my mind, everytime i let the devil come to my thoughts, am I the guy with the gun? what is people doing around me to make me carry the gun? or worst, What am I doing to make other people around me carry their guns?

Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
a loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded Gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
(take aint back my self)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
(take aint what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet
(take aint back my self)
A loaded Gun complex cock it and pull it

She's the one

La conozco desde 5to... si no me equivoco. Ella fué mi fuente de felicidad por mucho tiempo y asimismo mi dolor de cabeza por un tanto más... Ahora? ps no stoy segura, me hace odiarla y kererla al mismo tiempo. nuestra relación fué tan estrecha durante tanto tiempo que quien no nos conocia podia decir que eramos lesbianas. llegó a ser tanto asi que cuando ella tuvo su 1er novio, yo me enfadé millones de veces con ella y con el porque yo no estaba con ella ni un segundo (el es muy posesivo). pero fué un año y medio de pérdida de confianza, cada vez que ella dejaba que él ocupara nuestro espacio era un pedazo menos que se llevaba, y sucedió lo invitable. el otro día me preguntaba a mi misma porque ya nuestra amistad no era igual... pero era tan obvio que no lo podia ver. ademas, quedan guardados muchos resentimientos, apróximadamente un año y meses despues de que ellos terminaran hubo un pequeño incidente entre su ex y yo que nos llevó a ser mas que amigos (lo stoy intentando poner mas bonito ^^U). Yo, en mi infinita comprensión, entendía, que la estupida regla de "no te meterás jamás con el ex de una amiga tuya" era muy superficial para nuestra antigua y totalmente fuera-de-los-esquemas amistad, ella no. y bueno... ahora... ahora tenemos un empalme extraño lleno de secretos y cosas raras entre nosotras, ella es importante para mi, por eso va en primera pagina, porque no puedo olvidar que ella fue la que me sacó del "trio del que siempre sobra una" en el que yo estaba, ella llegó y yo no era más la 3ra rueda de la moto, no se si me explico... amigas que presentaré mas adelante eran mis primeras amigas y eramos 3 amigas antes de que rucca llegara al colegio, sin embargo yo... a pesar de que lo niegan (^U^) yo sobraba entre ellas, y eso se acabó con rucca ^^ fuimos durante un apróximado de 5 años las 4 moskiteras... digo... mosketeras, sin embargo ella era mi fuerte, asi como carolina era el fuerte de eva y viceversa. pero las cosas cambian tanto cuando creces que si te sales a un lado y te pones a mirar te puedes quedar con los ojos como platos de tantas estupideces que pasan... pero buenooo... eso es todo.

y aki va una cancion para nosotras:

Incubus - Dig

We all have a weakness

But some of ours are easy to identify.

Look me in the eye,

and ask for forgiveness.

We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.

Yes, you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us,

at least we dig each other.

So when weakness turns my ego up

I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another

dig me up from under what is covering

the better part of me.

Sing this song

remind me that we'll always have each other

when everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness

that cleverly attaches and multiplies

No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us,

at least we dig each other.

So when sickness turns my ego up

I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another,

dig me up from under what is covering

The better part of me.

Sing this song!

Remind me that we'll always have each other

when everything else is gone.

Oh, each other when everything else is gone.

el próximo será un amigo... y a pesar de que llegó a ser mi amigo mucho despues que las que deberia poner ahora (entiendase "Caro" y "Eva"), él... él es especial. ^^